oyays(: chin is over.. i wrote the longest ever bao zhang bao dao i cld ever write.. it was so coincidental that my teacher taught me how to write bao zhang bao dao las nite.. like wheww... it's quite sad i only learnt how to write bao zhang bao dao essays only like yesterday... =/

whether you choose to believe this or not.. i jus wna say..
i feel like im gna die soon... it's stupid to say this.. maybe it's cos some things happened to me recently.. and i told god(my own imaginary god)that please dont let me die yet... i wna finish my exams and do something for someone and make my life more worthy before i die...
as in i get this shit.. am i gna die now feeling all the time... and my instincts are right most of the time.. it's either i die or someone ard me is gna die... this sounds really stupid i know but it suddenly daunted on my how life can be so vulnerable...
1) there was once my whole condo block was shaking... my mum told me there were tremors and asked me to go down.. but i dismissed it as being over paranoid until i entered the lift which was packed with residents before i realised hey... what if the whole block really collapsed now and we all die tgt..
interestingly it's quite funny how i took life for granted...
2) the doctor told my chin teacher that he was gna die in ten years... becos his heart is spoilt.. and by that time his kids wld still be younger than me

a few other incidents happened over this period of time which really made me beg god.. if you really wna make me die can u let me die like a few wks later until i really did something for someone.. like something big...

stupidly.. i know this sounds very nonsensical.. and i know you wont buy it but it's true... the best part is even if i know im gna die tmr.. i will still go for the exams and lead life as per normal... which prolly means im enjoying life the way it is... whether it is painful or not wouldn matter....